Thanks, tigergirl. I just feel like screaming or something. No one cares and I have no one to talk to who would understand. I feel so stupid having this child part who wants my T to be my Mommy. It's so childish--obviously. I want to scream it out that I want that. I'm not in a good mood now.

I had a good Mommy anyway so why am I thinking this stuff? Maybe just because I miss her. Maybe age 33 isn't old to lose a mother. Maybe she wasn't a good Mommy when I was 3 or 4 or 5. But she was, so I never will understand myself in a million years of therapy!!!!!

I want to smash this computer anyway but I won't. I keep everything inside of me until I go crazy. I can't bother my T until Tuesday unless it's an emergency but it isn't because I'm too normal.