wisewoman, I thank you for these feelings you have given me.

I felt better than I have felt in years after writing that. I did crash a bit the next day, but im struggling with a new DX of bipolar with rapid cycling right now so i think that is why.

There is so, so so much more to the story. SO many years, so many incidents... i remember they asked me at trial how many times a week it happened.. I couldnt answer them for sure, but it was more than once.

On any hand, I thank you all so much. Reading this means I am not SILENT ANYMORE
I AM SAYING IT AND I WILL NOT BACK DOWN FROM TELLING ANYONE IF I CHOOSE

is basically how I feel.

Thank you for sharing the burden. THank you for knowing just what to say.

You know, this is a little dark, but in a strange way i am the tinest bit thankful that we all have had some situation like this to bring us together, if not, who would understand me? I would be alone, and that would be much worse.

Though, its too bad we cant come together under better circumstances. Please dont misread what i mean by that.

I am thankful for this message board everyday.

You know, I may even claim it saved my quality of life some day.

not yet, but im working on it