easy for you to say maybe. What if you were asked to write down every event of importance in your day, and examine every reaction you have, and try to think up and list possible alternatives to the reading you instinctively gave?
Do you know how deeply confusing it is to keep questioning every single reaction you have? Especially if you have a lot of self doubt to start with? You begin to wonder if maybe you can't ever make a reasonable reaction at all; you begin to think that maybe you don't use your God-given reason, you just emote. Well, reason is what makes us human beings; without reason we are not human. Reason is what makes us sane, Sblue, without reason we are literally - insane.
I refuse the idea that I am insane, and yes I balk at the idea of documenting how I "fail" to use my reason all day every day. I don't care how kindly and gently T packages it, I am not going to accept that; so why continue in therapy?