With my bi-polar I tend to beat myself up inside about anything I hear bad about me, mistakes I make, and any poor life decision that others notice and say something about. And noramally I just beat myself up in my mind, even yell at myself verbally.
With my tendency toward SI, however, I sometimes escilate into physically beating myself up over things. I gone as far as slapping and punching myself in the face, beating my head against the wall, punching things I know will hurt me. If the problem was of a sexual nature I've even gone as far as to turn the abuse on my genitals.
Are there any BP/SI combo people out there that have this same issue? How do you control yourself?