Hang in there. It sounds like you are pretty young. Having emotional issues, and being young (with the normal self-consciousness) is tough. I remember feeling that way, like I couldn't please anyone and that I wasn't pretty enough. Now that I'm older, I don't really care what other people think. You are more than what others think of you or what you might think they are thinking of you. I often find that I'm wrong about what others are thinking. My mind can skew things.