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Originally Posted by Catlovers141
At the beginning of last week I was experiencing a lot of negative emotions leading to some suicidal thoughts, including thinking about methods. A few days after that I was unable to feel anything. I am still at that point, and I am finding it really distressing. The only thing that is able to get through is random bursts of anxiety. The really odd thing is that when I was numb, I was wishing I could get back to the point of feeling bad again, even if it meant I had to go through the suicidal thoughts.
I'm curious as to your experience of these emotions. Is it more uncomfortable for you to experience the negative emotions or to feel numb? I am asking because I told my therapist about this and she said that the numbness can be like a respite from the other emotions. I found this to be the opposite and wonder what others' experiences are.
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catlover - I agree with madisgram.. contact your treatment providers.. my reasoning is because in your profile it says you have dissociative disorders. going numb after feeling emotional stuff is one of the symptoms that come with dissociative disorders. your meds if you are on any to help with your anxiety, depression/suicidal feelings may not be working correctly and may need adjusting or a new meds may need to be prescribed.
that said it is quite normal for people with dissociative disorders to go through bouncing between feeling extreme emotions and then not feeling anything at all.
contact your treatment providers. they can help you discover what is causing you to go from feeling emotions to going numb. with something like this that may be related to your mental disorders my suggesting anything else may end up going against your treatment plans.
when I have this problem of having feelings and then nothing/numbness it is not disturbing or painful for me. I have been like this my whole life so it is just my normal way to be. what isnt normal for me is being stable not bouncing back and forth, and being able to feel a full range of emotions. it was quite an adjustment for me after integration to not be switching from one emotion to another and switching from extreme emotions to numbness. it was just one of those things that comes from having dissociative disorders.
