Thank you for the hugs, Anika. I know you're in the same boat more often than not. *hugs back*

Idk. Sometimes (AKA right now) I seriously worry that my BP isn't BP. My mania feels less like "happy happy joy joy" or high energy irritability & more like... Just a psychotic break. My moods are really only a backseat to feeling overwhelmed & falling grip to the delusions/hallucinations/paranoia. I'm not sure if it's just the paranoia talking, but... That's just what I'm starting to suspect. Maybe my lack of affect isn't from ASPD & maybe it's Schizophrenia. Like some relapsing-remitting type that mimics mood cycles. Grr. I just want it to end. My head feels so fuzzy & I am so overcome that I am out of energy. Every last bit is lent to maintaining my place in reality...

And thank you, gma45. : )