Thanks for the advice. I love Mandy and I am going to stand by her no matter what. She has already helped me through so much already and if this is my chance to pay her back I am going to do just that. Anybody who would run away from a situation like this obviously doesn’t care enough about the person and shouldn’t be with them in the first place. We all have our scares and demons and nobody is perfect nor should we expect them to be. Rachel had some abusive boyfriends in the past which was one of the things that she told me lead to her becoming a lesbian but she never had the rage Mandy has from it so I think it must have been worse.

I have talked to Mandy about this now and she regrets what she did and I have talked her into seeing my psychiatrist about it this week so we will both be going together. I am no saint myself (as I previously mentioned) and I did things when I was younger similar and in some cases worse than what she did but I got through them and I matured through experience. I am not going to give up on Mandy though because I know she wouldn’t give up on me if this was the other way around. Jessica used to always say the problem with the world was nobody helped each other anymore and she was right. I discovered that when she passed away and the ones who do are becoming rare.

Warts and all, nothing is going to change the way I see Mandy. She is an incredible woman and I am going to do everything in power to help her. If she needs a shoulder to cry on or somebody to rely on I will be there but I think that it is probably best I avoid the whole speech on 'how it is a man’s job to protect his family and take care of her' as I already said something similar to her in the past and she thought I was being sexist. She told me a woman doesn’t need a man to defend her and she could defend herself. In her case I think she is right as she is stronger than me and other blokes.

I’m only eighty kilos but I would have to be around twenty more kilos than her. It’s strangely a turn on for her that she is stronger than me and sometimes when we are playing around on the bed we wrestle a bit and she pins me down and she enjoys doing it. I can protect her though. I got a mark on the top of my nose now from standing up to a bloke who was beating up his wife and his daughter and he punched me in the face while I was wearing sunglasses but I don’t regret it because it was the right thing to do. Mandy knows how much I care about her and that I would do anything for her.

I’m pretty sure Mandy wasn’t expecting to run into the guy when we were out and she told me it was the first time she has seen him in five years. She saw him and it started out verbal and then he said something to her that I won’t repeat on this forum and that’s when Mandy lost it and starting calling him all the different names under the sun while she was beating him up. As for the whole different group scene Perna, Mandy and I don’t usually have these problems and we like the people we hang around with now.