im so unsure of how my mind works i used to like another guy about 3 years ago, and he dumped me after 5 months. all of a sudden. he just stopped contacting me when he went abroad and he was the reason i came looking for help online and found it here on PC afterwards, i deliberately 'fell for' Eric...i know its complicated, but i started observing him so much so that i could divert my attention from that other guy and forget him, and finally fell for Eric instead! oh well....he didnt even bother to talk to me.... i blew up my chances aswell somehow by lying about myself and it pissed him off. but atleast he knew that i was really interested in him and liked him so much. he didnt care at all.

he's not the sort of guy who'd talk to many girls. there was only one as far as i know and i have been SO jealous of this girl. and nowwww he's talking to this other girl too whom i had thought was not really close to him. i think they kept it to themselves and secret.