thank you for the idea of writing it all down it sounds like a good idea but im even afraid to do that because i am in a relationship with a man that used to be verbally abusive to me ut things have gotten better. he used to open my mail read my text messages and stop me goin where i wanted to go he doesnt even know ive been to the doctor and have been diagnosed with depression and i dont want him to know as we have a child together and he has often told me in the past that if we were to split up he wud try for full custody and my child is my life i just feel guilty for feeling the way i do somedays are good and others i fell ive hit rock bottom. so how are you now how are you coping?