Hi,

Were you diagnosed with NPD or you just have strong narcissistic traits? Please know that true NPD's don't seek professional help out of genuine consideration for those they've abused. They just want to find a reason or excuse for why they have been suffering pitfalls or setbacks in life or to prove that it really is everyone else's fault after all. It is all about THEM. They are always the victim of other people or some malady. It is merely a means of regaining or maintaining control over the situation that is uncomfortable for them..in other words, shaming. If they are diagnosed with NPD or ADD/ADHD, or what have you, they will soon return to their dysfunctional, abusive, approval (supply) demanding behavior once they are back on their feet. Only now they have a clinical diagnosis to blame in addition to another person. Kudos to you if you truly understand how your faulty behavior hurts those around you and you wish to change... yourself.

You may want to look into community outreach/family counseling programs in your area and a sliding scale fee for therapy. I once did this while unemployed and only paid $25 per visit.