SunAngel: No medications. No pdoc. Not even a therapist. Never have had any of those things, save for the clinic evaluation that determined I had BP. Never went back for treatment &, by the time I found transportation to go back, it was too late.
Hopefully my mother is paying for me to get my ID here in Puerto Rico (moved from Florida early this year) so perhaps I can get government-issued insurance & start getting taken care of. There aren't really any options for me until then. Mental health is very much a no man's land here, since evidently a lot of people use it as an excuse. Their physical health programmes are exceptional though, so go figure!
But until then, I'm pretty much just fighting this through on my own. My boyfriend is really supportive, I have PC, & I have started keeping a journal. It's just hard to express things I have a hard time describing. My thoughts are so confused by this point. :/
Thank you for being so helpful.

morethingswrong: Thank you so much for your input. PC has definitely been a bit of a blessing, personally. Until here, I had a very hard time going to anyone with what was plaguing me. Unfortunately, at the same time, as I joined here it's been the worst it has ever been. But I'm trying to do my best to relax. Thank you!