Thank you JD. It is a huge mess trying to figure out what's going on in my own head. 9 years ago I was diagnosed with schizophrenia and shortly after the same t diagnosed me with DID. I get voices from in and out. I also see things that are not real. I dissasociate like it's going out of style also dealing with depersonalization often as well. I can be watching my body interact with a table full of people but my mind is at the other side of the table completely disconnected to my body.
Then I have times where I hear about the night before how I'm crawling on the floor screaming and crying getting sick everywhere and got taken by ambulance to the ER.
Then I have a fainting spell and stop breathing for nearly 3 minutes.
Then I have a seizure for a minute and a half and escape into my head.
Then my brothers call me by different names and my mom tells me I am back talking her when I have no memory of the event. Each time it starts and ends the same. A heavy dark feeling comes in and everything goes black. I get sucked back into reality the same as well and begin to get sick sometimes but always no matter if it's 1/2 a second or hours I've lost, I always have some sort of headache.
I'm unaware of any alters. I've tried for years to become co conscious and am starting to feel like maybe it wont happen because I'm not DID. I had a t who wanted to help me become co conscious so she put me on Lithium to help me dissasociate more, help them come forward more pretty much. I think I was her guinea pig. I started seeing things and even told her I thought that she could have been one of my own alters and that this world was all made up in my head (hense the schizo part lol) well she still wanted me on the meds even though I was seeing spiders everywhere, buffalo on the interstate getting run over... So many insane things and so many times my body would move without me doing it. I called it quits after that.

I have no t, have no money for a t. I need assistance but wont get any for a while so I'm trying to figure it out on my own. I can tell you the first time I lost my memory (I wont of course due to triggers) and I can remember the times in between... Well some of them. I don't remember what happened during the memory loss of course but I can remember that feeling after coming back just knowing something is missing. Some piece of you is missing. It's a scary feeling and any time I remember that feeling, any time my mind wonders and thinks about that feeling too much it comes back. It happens when I'm under a great deal of stress which leads me to believe it is indeed a DD but the fact that it causes siezures and fainting as well as depersonalization and such... Not to mention I have phases where I can't remember who I am. I'm still me but I don't know who me is. I know my past, what is supposed to be my past, but it doesn't seem like it's me. Ugh it's frustrating. Sorry to talk your ear off, I'm at work and trying to speed up time and look into this some Thanks again for the response I really appreciate it!!!!!!!