I lost my job partly do to my BP symptoms. I just could not handle working at the Ste Hospital anymore. I had to sue for my pension. SSI kicked in right away but I had to wait almost 3 years to get my pension and health benefits. I have many health problems besides being 60 now. Its scary and depressing. I get evaluated every year and worry that I will lose my benefits. I am lucky that my house is paid for but without my health benefits I don't know what I would do. When I was waiting for my backpay from the State of Michigan I was very depressed and drinking with my meds. I turned into a "porch monkey". Just sat on the porch drinking and smoking. Even if I could get a job I would lose my benefits. I have severe arthritis in my left ankle that keeps me from working as a nurse anymore. I also suffer from PTSD and have a Pacemaker. Its scary.