Well, thanks again, I guess. I'm too stunned right now to notice, which again shows the value of training, of preparation. I knew this would be the hardest thing I ever did, seeing them off (unless it came of a sudden). So, this is still a grieving process for me, notwithstanding that they haven't died. Yet.

I can't talk about what happened, yet, because we remember things differently. I've had some special conversations, where I drew them each out about certain events, never letting on that I much recalled the event at all. And their memories are not accurate. I'll just leave it at that. I know they tried their best. As I would honour any person for that, I cannot speak more fully until they pass. There is no point, no point whatsoever, to their discovering that I have a very different recollection and experience to recount. So be it.

I'm so f*cking exhausted, already. I don't usually swear. Sorry.

Lar