Thank you again JD. Your post was very helpful. I've often wondered if the ones within (if there are any) could hear me or not. I've tried talking. I've tried communicating but get nothing. For some reason I often find myself referring to me as "we" when thinking and thinking out loud. I catch myself a lot of the time and am confused why I said it. My guess is that I've spent nearly 10 years with the dx of DID that it's in my head I'm a we and not a me. Or maybe it's because I am a we who knows...
I have a journal and I originally bought it for the purpose of communication within but it's become a personal journal that even I myself am nervous to write in. I have a feeling with the last journal I wrote in my fiance read it one night. I love him and he is very trusting but I guess his curiosity got the best of him and now I'm afraid it will again in this notebook so I've kept it pretty censored and maybe this is the reason it's not working for communication.

I've been thinking of getting a journal and hiding it but that's impossible at the moment since I share my bedroom with 2 others. Maybe an online journal but he has went through my web history before. Only once and he apologized a million times for it but none the less... I don't have much privacy. I have to clear history when I come on here on my own computer since I'm worried he may come on and read what I post. Please don't think he is a bad person though, he is a genuinely good man and I'm the snooper more than he is. We are still somewhat young and immature thus the reason for snooping.
I've tried thinking really hard, hoping they could hear me. Can they hear your thoughts? I hope so. I've spent hours having one sided conversations in my thoughts. Begging them to come out when I was at my loneliest. Begging them for help when I didn't feel like I could go further. Begging to just hear them to know I wasn't alone. For some reason I feel as if maybe I do have alters, maybe if they show themselves I wont feel as empty I guess you could say... I don't feel empty but I feel lonely and as if I'm all alone in here missing many things that I need I just don't know what they are. It's hard to explain feelings. I try to convince them to let me hear them, have them come out, anything at all, any information on who they are, anything.

I'm a very impatient person so I don't like waiting as long as I already have, maybe one of my alters holds my patience lol...
Thanks again for the response... Part of me wishes I do in fact have what the doctors say I have. So I know I'm not alone, I didn't live this life alone... Even if the alters are all me, we are all the same... The thought makes me feel a little less lonely