Hi Vintageromance,

Thanks for sharing your post.
I wish I knew the right thing to say.
Keep taking deep breaths.
Trust your gut. Trust yourself. Seek out help anywhere you can. Hope you can get to see that therapist... Take any time for yourself that you can.
Remember you are important and the most important thing is to take care of yourself before helping others.
I have found this group helpful. Maybe there is one in your area... The people are usually very understanding and nice to be around.
(For family "dysfunction" and not just children of alcoholics)
http://www.adultchildren.org/Meetings.s