This stuff really makes me tired. I work full time and was going to college. I am trying to adopt. So my life is full. I almost have no time to process. I journal. I forget everything. She wants to do emdr but I freaked. I am hanging on by a thread. I asked my boss for one consistent day off a week to do therapy and college and stuff. I stopped college. On my day off I do T and journaling and nothing else. I have a long drive to T so I can think on my way there and on my way home. I sleep a lot more than I used to. I stopped TV. My T was supposed to be quick. But now I have discovered more problems. T says I also have a dissociative disorder. I want full testing. So I guess I will be in T a long time. And I do have to work the same number of hours, just more on weekends. I use PC for support between sessions since T's appts are tight. She may send me to another T for the D.D. Therapy is hard kind of like getting chemo or dialysis on a regular basis.