Thanks for replying , yeah im back on meds and i am at the moment waiting to see a councillor, it seems like ive been waiting for ever! cutting is the only way i can relieve my sadness and its only for moments cause once i realize what i am doing i get guilty and start to worry what my partner will say, He should be home soon, so fingers crossed he's in a good mood, and just gives me a cuddle thats all i really want!