OM*G... we've talked a bunch and I NEVER questioned that you were a guy! Had to read the "I'm female" line several times! glad I was sitting!

You are you and what that is just is... no right, wrong or mother issues IMO. I'm not a foofy chick either. Gender IMO is a spectrum.

IMO, given your age you are just figuring out how to claim your personal power, discover who and how you want to be as an adult and learn to express yourself that way. An uncomfortable limbo between youth and adulthood.