I dont know what to say so i guess i'll just give you the background first.
I got a new roommate at the beginning of the semester, and my boyfriend and her get along great, so great in fact, that it started making me nervous, and dare i say, jealous, so i brought it up with him instead of just letting it all boil inside of me. So later he came back to my place after work to tell me that he loved only me and that he is going to deal with the problem and not worry about it. The problem is, when we sit down and have talks like this, we always digress to past or existing issues, so what we also ended up talking about is how i am too sensitive, how he feels like he cant have friends that are girls, that I have a problem and that i wont realize it until i see it for myself, and on and on and on. Everything i said in the course of this conversation was wrong apparently, at least thats how it felt, he just fires back so quickly at me that i figure its best not to talk at all, to just stay quiet and let him go, even if i do want to cry really badly, i hold it inside because my being "overly sensitive" is a problem and its wrong according to him, and it effects him negatively and frustrates him, so i have no choice but to just sit there and take it. It doesnt feel fair to me, and i dont like that that is how we deal with things, i know i have to talk to him about this, i already told him twice that whenever we speak like this i feel like im always wrong, but he says he doesnt even realize that hes doing it. What do i do? We are a young couple, so we have time to work on our issues, but us being young, and me in college, and him working full time, i think this gives some fragility to the relationship. Someone help me. I feel like being sad and crying and blowing things out of preportion sometimes is the deadliest of the 7 sins. I just hate being who i am sometimes because i cant be myself without people saying that its wrong, because then, logically its wrong being me....some help me please *cry* im at the end of my rope with this sensitivity issue and his bad habit.
all things shall pass...even life.
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