Xando, that wasn't long winded at all, it was a wonderful post and a good way to look at life, one day at a time is really all we can do in reality, and I agree with you on that.

WishingonaStar, Xando is so right, and the most you can do is try to enjoy your parents when they are still here one day at a time. My parents are both 86 and my mother struggles and I have always been so close to her. I don't know what I will do when that time comes when they will be gone.

I am truely sorry that you are faced with so much struggle, so much has been placed on your shoulders. As for the cleaning of the house and taking better care of your father, there is always going to be something more we could do, should have done, should do etc. The fact that you are there for them is more important than being perfect.

I understand that it is hard but try to let go of the anger, anger is very draining and it does make depression worse. As far as your future? None of us can tell what that will be and there may be bright spots that you have coming that you may never realize until it happens. And as far as being alone, many people have family and others around them and yet are still very alone. The truth is that in many ways we are alone in life as we are all on our own private journey.

But you do have a choice as hard as it is, you can just take your life one day at a time and try to enjoy the moments you have left with your parents.

I will say some prayers for you. Welcome to PC, there are many nice people here that do know what lonely means and they are very supportive and understanding.

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