Thoughts of self harm r really strong right now. I haven't had thoughts of suicide in a very long time which worries me. I am still camping with just my mom, dad, and niece as of now. The whole weekend was very exhausting and paranoia and scary for me for some reason. I don't like how I feel but that's how I feel. I want to take extra pills and cut my wrists but I am trying hard not too but it is hard.