I just am so sad. I wanted to be so much more and so much better than I am and ever can be... Maybe this is as good as it gets. [/quote]

I've said almost the same words a thousand times but then I keep waking up each morning and hoping to God that today is the day it gets better. I hope the same for you . May today be the day your sadness eases and you can let some of the love that is arounds you settle into your cells and ease the pain.

Bub