I'm 21 and have never been in any sort of relationship or start of one. I've had a couple crushes every so often but have never been able to act on them and let the said person know of this. Usually they were stranger-crushes so I even feel stupid as for even thinking such things.

As far as I know no one has ever been interested in me. I don't feel a particular attraction to my own gender, so I don't think I'm queer but every girl I've been interested in has turned out to be bisexual or lesbian with no interest in me. I don't know what this means.

I've had people tell me I'm good looking (my grandmother, ex-roommates), but I don't particularly think so. I find myself repulsive and Imagine that others view me as frightening/creepy/ugly.

Every time I like a girl I think of all the possibilities and can't ever imagine her liking me, and even if in my wildest dreams she does like me she gets bored of me and dumps me because im a deadbeat zombie.

I normally don't post these type of threads but I'm tired of being alone. And I recently met a girl that I had a class with a few years back and I think I like her.