I thought he would always be there for me but from the moment I told him I'm going in for surgery he's avoided to see me, call me and text me. We've been broken up on and off for 4 months and before I found out I was going in for brain surgery we were broken up for about 2-3 weeks. I needed someone to be there and he was the first person I thought about and it just broke my heart that he didn't want to take part in my life as a support.

I kept asking him to come over to see me, spend time with me bc I was so scared. He kept stringing me along. He didn't call anymore and his texts were less and less. I finally got the hint that he didn't want to get involved. I finally changed my number and blocked him from my facebook. I changed my number to help myself from moving on and end those endless days thinking someday, he'll call me.

We broke up for many reasons but our love was always there for one another. I wasnt asking for him to come back and be with me. I was the one who ended the relationship. I was only looking for support especially when he was my strongest support back then. He was the one who helped me stay strong before when I was going through with my health issues. Now my surgery is only 10 days away and how I wish he was here. I wish I could see him when I open my eyes after the surgery. I miss our love, our love made me feel safe and comfort.

Our relationship didn't work out and I know it wouldn't and I left. At a time like this I just want to be love. I saddens me that I loved the wrong man.