Hi, Vintage...I like your username and the photo I really feel for you I have been in that place where I feel 'stuck'. Last year, like you I tried to get to my Doc. to refill a Paxil Rx, my 2 relief ppl could not work for those days that I needed to go to the visit and unknown to me, an RX I was taking for Neurapathy was a second antidepressant...which I also ran out of. It caused a huge train wreck. I inadvertently went into acute withdrawl...experiencing acute anxiety, paranoia and panic attacks. This was all new to me. Ended up in the ER and the nightmare was just beginning. Had to wait 12 horrible, scary hours in the county ER waiting room, having difficulty breathing the whole time, thinking I was having a heart attack. Then the ER prescribed Elavil which just made the anxiety worse! Couldn't sleep (if you can call it that) for longer than 4 hrs a night and woke up feeling like I just drank espresso. Finally, an angel from God, a doctor slash tenant of mine had given me her cell #...I was absolutely desperate for relief. She prescribed the paxil again...my reg. doc. wouldn't even do this! Overall this whole ordeal lasted about 3 mos. I lost 30 lbs bc the withdrawl sped up my metabolism...then, I gained it all back plus more as hormones from menopause has changed things again. Sometimes it seemed like I'd never get through this horrible experience, but everyday I had to keep believing that God was FOR me, and He was on my side, rooting for me. I wd remind myself that although my friends and family let me down many times, they did still love me, despite their shortcomings. They are limited I have to accept that.

Reading the posts here, there's some really good advice and guidance here. This can NOT last forever, as your emotions may tell you or you may fear. Everything...is temporary, and it WILL come to pass. I find alot of comfort, peace and security in my relationship with God. I cast my cares upon Him and let Him hold me up, when I am feeling depressed or weak.
He is fully able to be our rock <3

Sending you love today...modmaiden