mgran - I started crying when I read your words, "How about saying the following. "My name is... and I beat rape."" I too have been raped, just a couple of months ago, and it was my first time as well. Physically it didn't hurt that bad, but mentally it's the worst thing I've ever been through. I'm seeking help, but it's so slow. It seems like I'm getting worse not better.

But it helps to know there are people who've made it to the other side. Thanks for that.

chlorophyll - I all to well understand what you mean about hating to tell the story again. With my situation there were so many things going on at one time, that it's not only painful to relive the memory but it's a long story too boot. The more time that passes, the more I forget. I'm not sure if I'm supressing or moving on, I seriously hope it's the latter.

Anyway good luck to all of us.