I feel like I'm a traitor and a horrible person for even thinking this way (because I swear I
do like and respect my T), but:
Do you ever feel like your therapist is just placating/pacifying you?
This thought occured to me as I was posting elsewhere, in response to an email I got from my T. I just felt like my email to her was needy, like a baby crying, and her response was like 'hushhhhh...it's okaaay...' (which, ironically, is kinda what I was after, so I don't know why I'm taking it like this: )
My initial reaction was that I found her words comforting, but then I re-read it and considered how carefully constructed it seemed. Like, the 'perfect' response.
I'm new to this therapy thing, and I felt it had been going well, but now she's on vacay - and this is coinciding with me hitting the first real low point since seeing her (prompted by my car accident the other day) and I guess I'm questioning
everything... I realise I've been putting a lot of faith in my T being able to help me... but what if she can't? What if it's all carefully constructed responses and stock answers? Smoke and mirrors? New age woo? What if there are no real solutions to my problems?
Yeah, I guess I'm freaking out. A lot of mixed emotions right now. Is this the 'self-sabotage' aspect of my depression? Maybe it can be chalked up to 'abandonment' or 'attachment' or 'rejection' issues...
But anyway, regardless of my reasons for asking this question, I'm interested to hear
your responses, no matter the circumstance.