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Old Sep 06, 2011, 01:59 PM
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I feel like I'm a traitor and a horrible person for even thinking this way (because I swear I do like and respect my T), but: Do you ever feel like your therapist is just placating/pacifying you? This thought occured to me as I was posting elsewhere, in response to an email I got from my T. I just felt like my email to her was needy, like a baby crying, and her response was like 'hushhhhh...it's okaaay...' (which, ironically, is kinda what I was after, so I don't know why I'm taking it like this: ) My initial reaction was that I found her words comforting, but then I re-read it and considered how carefully constructed it seemed. Like, the 'perfect' response.
In the beginning of therapy, when you're just setting up a relationship with T, it's very important that she get your implicit trust so you can talk with her about very private things you normally wouldn't think of discussing with another person, even your best friend. What you may be experiencing as "placating/pacifying" you may very well be part of her attempts to justify your trust in her. This is entirely normal and standard and really shouldn't make you doubt her sincerity or her willingness to work with you on your problems.

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I'm new to this therapy thing, and I felt it had been going well, but now she's on vacay - and this is coinciding with me hitting the first real low point since seeing her (prompted by my car accident the other day) and I guess I'm questioning everything... I realise I've been putting a lot of faith in my T being able to help me... but what if she can't? What if it's all carefully constructed responses and stock answers? Smoke and mirrors? New age woo? What if there are no real solutions to my problems?
Ahhhh, the "vacation blues." When the cat's away the mice wonder about all kinds of things. This is actually a tradition that goes back to the beginning with Sigmund Freud. T's usually take the month of August off, everywhere in the world, and there's a whole, huge, bunch of really, really normal negative reactions on the part of patients left behind for the month of August. And those normal negative reactions can very well include all kinds of doubts about T's sincerity and her professional abilities or, as you say so well, whether it's all "smoke and mirrors [or] new age woo?"

Statistically, there very probably ARE real solutions to your problems. It's entirely doubtful that of all patients in the world you yourself have come up with some kind of a problem T can't help you on. I'd strongly advise to you present T, on her return, with all of the doubts and worries you describe in your post here. And I think she will very sincerely be able to lay those doubts and worries to rest, without giving you some cardboard cut-out answers she found in a book. Give her a chance.

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Yeah, I guess I'm freaking out. A lot of mixed emotions right now. Is this the 'self-sabotage' aspect of my depression? Maybe it can be chalked up to 'abandonment' or 'attachment' or 'rejection' issues... But anyway, regardless of my reasons for asking this question, I'm interested to hear your responses, no matter the circumstance.
Yes, the vacation blues do have very much to do with "abandonment," or "attachment" or "rejection" issues. Which only means you're a normal human being. Do tell them to T, in great detail! She needs to know! You need to know that she really does care how you feel and that you make progress in therapy! Give her a chance! Take care.
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