For two weeks of the month i feel so alive and buzzing i cant wipe the euphoria and delerium off of me. I get likened to being "Scatty" and as "Mad as a box of frogs" But then for two weeks of the month i feel so low, depressed, anxious, suicidal at times and the feelings of chronic emptiness and despair return.

I have questioned with my psych if I possibly have a mood disorder. I suspect possibly Cyclothymia. Not full blown Bi-Polar, im not sure. But because of my Irritability I have been diagnosed BPD (Borderline). But I am asking for a second opinion as I dont suffer all the criteria and hallmark traits for BPD. I was treated as an in patient for 4 weeks back in the summer during which time i was taken off of all meds and was a complete mess I tried to OD 3 times. Life just finally got on top of me.

I just wondered what you guys feel day to day, week to week, month to month. I cycle every two weeks. Ive done mood charts and you can see it going in a wave pattern.

Im sure im ruled by the moons you know. When there is a full moon im at my worst :-/ dont know if that just coincidence tho lol