Thanks you for sharing this. Reminds me of my relationship that was as unsatisfying, and I was hearing some of the similar pronouncements and yet I hanged on, and on growing more and more dissatisfied and yet unable to walk away.

As to why you are putting up with it, I really do not know. Logically it makes no sense, right? Could it be fear that if you break up with him, you may not find someone better? After your experiences it may be hard to have faith in male species. Do you hold some hope that if you love him you can patch up the problems in the relationship? Or maybe you were attracted to his brokenness the way a little girl is attracted to a bird with a broken wing, hoping that her love can heal the little thing and it will fly again.