Yes I will tell her everything as I have been texting her while on vacation at times. I really want to self harm right now and take extra meds. I feel like I'm crawling out of my skin. I want it all to end. Parts of me want to die but that's not an option for me and my family. Thanks for all your support. It has been great keep it coming please. It's just that I was just in the hospital 2 months ago and it seems like I'm always going into the hospital and I want to end that cycle.