i have been on anti depressants for 5 years. got took off them as i was becoming more mixed as the days went by. i went to the docs as i would get extremely high and then extremely low. when i got taken off of my anti depressants back in the summer i got so crazy i ended up getting sectioned but then the hospital took that down from involuntary inpatient to vouluntary - i didnt end up getting prooperly assessed under the mental health act. the hospital kept me off meds altogether. i went really awful. hallucinating, pyschosis not a nice place at all. i then started taking mood stabilsers (Topamax) they seemed to have no effect whatsoever so now ive come off of them and gone onto Chlorpromazine (anti psychotic) to help with paranoid behaviour, severe anxiousness and irritability. I wonder about Cyclothymia over actual full blown BP as the cyclical waves are alot faster and i dont experience full blown mania - more hypomania. But my depression is quite bad when that hits