Shay, I'm sorry you are going through all this

I can relate to so much of what you said. When I am psychotic I can't communicate well. I also stutter alot. I have a hard time talking to anyone about anything. Too jumbled inside. I even have a hard time doing everyday tasks like the dishes. When it is all over I go back to being normal me and sharp. It is indeed very frustrating to live this way.
I am glad you joined us here and I am glad you posted this.