(((Star7))) I agree that calling a hotline, going to the hospital, or finding some way to get some immediate support would be a very good thing. It sounds like things feel hopeless to you right now, but that is what depression does... it clouds our vision and keeps us from being able to see hope.

I've had times of feeling really hopeless too, but then I'll change something, i.e., meds/therapy/supplements/exercise/nutrition/lifestyle, etc... and I'll feel enough better that I'm able to see things more clearly for a while. For me, its like suddenly having just enough light that I can find my way across a darkened room, rather than being immobilized by the darkness. I know that it is frustrating when treatments don't seem to work, but I don't think that any of us every fully exhausts all the options... and science is always learning new things about how to treat this illness.

Be kind to yourself, keep posting here, and find some support to get through this time.

peace,
Garden Gal