It had been seven months since my ex boyfriend of four years ended our relationship. We still mantained contact with each other the whole time up until recentlly. When we first met we deicided to move in together right away. I had problems with him from the start always wanting to go out and drink or smoke pot. It seemed to me like that was important first and formost. after living together for a year we ended up breaking up for a while because of these issues. After his calls and expressing wanting to get back together I did. I ended up moving to another town to be with him. This was the start of the most depressing time of my life. When I moved to the new town I was under the impression that he had a job already. But shortly after he was fired for stealing. I ended taking a job fulltime working night shift so we could afford to live. I was unable to really make new friends as it was hard to go out working night shift. We had a bad arguement one day and I had tried to kill myslef because I felt that he was all that I had. We moved on from that I thought, but no. A year and a half later he started parting all the time again. Shortly after this he came home one night and broke up with me. He said that he has not wanted to be with me since I had tried to kill myslef. He did not know why he stayed with me. He went on this parting binge every night spent all the money he had. Then had to move back home with his parents. This was seven months ago. The whole time this last seven months we still talked, he always said that he did not know if he loved me and he did not know if he wanted to be with me. But it was ok for us to have sex occasionally. I found out shortly after christmas that he was seeing someone else and I was very hurt by this I could not belive that he actually was. He then told me to move on with my life. That my feelings were not normal. Now I am left feeling like nothing, like I am not a person at all. Any of the friends we had when we were together don't care to talk to me any more. I feel terrible I am not sure what to do. He has expressed a desire to be friends but it only seems like he wants that when he wants something from me. It is almost like I have no self worth and I feel like nothing without him in my life help please.