Just remember no one is normal. Everyone has to learn throughout life. At least your getting guidance, give it time. Try not to bring up your past wrongs when you meet someone. Try to let that go. If you have decided to change than don't bring your past to new relationships, don't expect someone to make up for your past, no one can do that, not even you. You have to start new and work on changing today and tomarrow one day at a time.

If you keep telling women about your bad boy days it is like you are warning her your a bad person instead of working on making changes. You have to think about what you present to others, are you looking for a mother to tell you she is going to make it all better, poor little boy? You wont really like that, because that is where you will put yourself in the relationship, the poor little bad boy, fix me, I cant fix myself. Give that a lot of thought Richardrahl, most women don't want to be a mother figure and have to put up with a child that has tantroms, you have to be a man now. You have to walk away from the Peter Pan little boy that you have been. And you are not alone in that, most men have to face that eventually, otherwise they end up alone and are scratching their heads.

When my husband was your age he was still very much a Peter Pan. It was really hard on me, most women opt out of that. It took a long time for him to grow up and to be honest I have morned for that man that I thought I got married to and I NEVER deserved to suffer what I had to go through. I really loved him and he really messed that up. I lived for many years not feeling safe, not a nice feeling, very damaging in fact, and big part of what I am fighting now.
Now, I have tried to forgive but I cannot help the damage it has done to me, I have realized that it just doesn't go away. Oh, how I wish it would. And I do love my husband but I really wish all those years of trauma never existed.

So grow up first, it will make so much difference, so much less to regret and you CAN do it.

Open Eyes