so my T has been on vacation i wont see her until Monday.i miss her so much.i am thinking about T and i am just uneasy about all of it.such a mix of emotions and i don't understand why.it isn't like i go in there and talk up a storm or that i have this overwhelming connection or attachment to her.but still i miss her when she goes away. so even when she comes back i will go to T and probably say nothing again and have my usual huge trust issues.i am just completely confused by it all.i even stop working on anything as she is gone.like the mindfulness stuff.i was very into it but now that i haven't seen her in about a week and half i have just not dealt with anything.it is like i just give up wanting anything for me and just kind of go into hiding and deal with nothing but feeling sorry for myself.just felt like ranting