((((((((((((Evangelista)))))))))))))) this is a normal part of DID. Hang in there. You are not going to fade into non existance and so on and this can be fixed.

its called dissociative fugue. what makes it happen is that remembering the forgotten thing is so filled with anxiety, fear and so on that the brain stored the memory of that in the unconscious level so that the person can still continue to function with their daily life.

When my son was put into foster care to wait for a residential treatment program opening because he was very violent towards me and the family cat I knew there was a possibility of his never living at home again.

I couldnt handle that so my brain took everything about my son and tucked it away in my unconscious. for about 6 months of my life I had no idea that I had a son.

There were pictures on the wall of a child I didn't remember, his toys in his room and so on. When people asked me about him I would ask who? I learned to just agree with what ever they were saying because of their shocked reactions when I asked who made me feel like I was crazy.

Finally I called a friend and flat out asked her if I had a child because people here kept talking like I did and I was getting tired of bluffing my way through their questions.

She went to her DID specialist and came back telling me it was dissociative fugue. The two of us spent many emails and phone calls talking about my son and the trigger - his being in residential instead of home during the holidays and I also had to look at pictures and so on of my son. slowly the memorys of him came back.

now I look at pictures of him, watch the sonogram of him, listen to the voice recordings of him we made every year on his birthday. I do this every day just so I don't experience dissociative fugue about my son again.

Once you locate the trigger (event or reason) for why you are dissociating the people in your life and take steps to stop the trigger from causing anxiety and fear the dissociative fuges will stop.

No you will not fade into non existance. Alters (memory pieces are only acted out while the person is feeling triggered. Once the person feels comfortable again the acting out of memory pieces stop. find your triggers and use your coping tools of grounding and so on and you will be able to stay more aware.