It is very hard and very confusing. All the time it's soooooooooo damn confusing. They make us feel like it's all our fault if we try to move on. I don't even want to move on. I want to be together but he just keeps playing stupid games.

I am so sad and angry all the time now. I have alienated myself from EVERY SINGLE LOVED ONE AND FRIEND I have because of this disaster.

My heart is closed off to even the thought of another person. It is cold and lonely here.