What I mean by walls is I've experienced a lot of things that have influenced the walls. I was supspened twice from college, first time was because my roommate did NOT talk to me first before going to the manager, who had to go to the school, because of the anxiety attacks where affecting her. So after that I started to loose trust in people, and didn't want to tell them what I was/am going through. Also I've only had one relationship (boyfriend) and since that time, I have learned that People let me down a lot, so I don't let them in. And also all of the depression nasty thoughts, and anxiety have gotten in the way of a lot of relationships, due to the fact that I hate telling people about my past. If only I could say the truth, and talk freely without fear of people running away from all the hard stuff.