... since this is helping. Can anyone suggest a way to get me to stop looking out the damned window every five seconds - for him? It's making me very anxious. I get up constantly - even right in the middle of important work to look. It's controlling me & I hate this feeling.

I want to get to the point where I am relaxed & don't care or even forget all together that he might go by or stop next door. The visiting next door is done to torture me. See I don't fight with him - EVER. I'm beginning to think he's trying to see how much I will / can take before I snap. Then he'll turn it all on me.

So how do I get to that blissful place of not caring wtf he does?