Here we go again...
Now the upcoming event is our anniversary. I find it hard because last year was 5 years. 5 years is/was/should be a big deal right? But 2 weeks before....
So now were at 6 as of Friday. We are going on a weekend getaway (typical of us, we went away last year and previous years too), we have tickets to Cirque du Soleil and were both excited. But I'm having trouble being excited excited ya know? It's like I can't get my heart into it as much as I want.

I feel glum. I keep thinking about last year, this was such a hard time. We managed to survive the weekend but it took some masterful compartmentalizing on my part.

I hate trying to figure out what reason this event has for being in my life. But I'm that type of person.
Just sigh and arggg