Granite,
Two things from reading your post and first off I am encouraged to here you say that you rollar coaster on the attachment thing but hey the great news it.......Granite is attached to her t now. Even though it is painful. I completely 100% agree. You are now officially in the therapy heart ache club. No worries there are no monthy dues we already pay a fortune for therapy!

The second thing I wanted to comment on was how you say you are not working on anything right now while she is away in particular mindfullnes. Many times when my t goes on vacation he does not expect I will be able to work on my skills. Depending on where I am at and what we are working on. It is a therapy vacation for me. It takes away the guilt and shame about not succeeding. Sometimes I think WHOO HOO free pass! Maybe you could think of it as you taking a vacation from therapy. Something to talk to t about perhaps.