Thanks for the reply, My wife is fully aware of whats going on. See's the reason I am getting help at all, even outside of the military.

I'm trying to get another position, one that no longer involves having to deal with combat. But, as with everything in the military it takes time, and its a competitive position. I don't want to destroy my military career, but its getting harder and harder to sometimes deal even with day to day life when all you can do is remember things you want to forget that just won't go away.