i stopped smoking & coffee for nearly 10 months and started again about 3 weeks ago.

i could kick myself in the @$$

although, this last week i finally realised that i've slipped back into a rather deep depressive state and that starting again was in some way an attempt at self-medicating.

i sought medical advice on tuesday & i went onto an SSRI yesterday, so i'm feeling a little like i'm underwater at the moment, but as soon as i feel a little more stable again, i intend to stop again ASAP