I don't think you are terrible you sound smitten..I sometimes take flack in here because I am not 100% against being involved with a married man...BUT DO YOU KNOW what he said on his wife is TRUE or just his take..Do you have a sponser to bounce this off of....You could hurt his wife and kids and thats I think against some step BUT all that crap aside..sometimes its just RIGHT and when it is....one has to GO FOR IT but know...it may be a time limited thing...can you do that ?