(((akekaomen)))

I understand what you're saying.

It is disturbing to see these patterns that we developed SO young, to avoid further conflict, have been repeated throughout our lives. For me, the disturbing part is to recognize that these patterns aren't real healthy. They worked, way back when. But they aren't working for me now. {That's something my T often mentions in therapy}

It is a sad fact to accept. Nor is it an easy pattern to end. Recognizing the pattern is an important first step. Moving on from there and deciding how to change has been confusing for me. Maybe because I'm tempted to stick with the way I've known??

It does help me to come to PC and see others farther down the road than myself. Kind of a hope ~ to see that things can get better. Just have to keep working at it.

Best wishes to you!