If you have certain things that you have difficulty saying, try writing them down. If I can't seem to get the words out, I'll write them down and bring them to session. I recently had a difficult subject to bring up with my T, so I wrote down exactly what I wanted to say. I figured if I couldn't say the words I would just hand him the sheet of paper and let him read it. I did manage to read the words myself, but I sounded like a robot. Ugh! Just couldn't feel the emotion that should have been there. But at least I got the subject out, he's aware of it, and we're working on it. I do the best I can.

It sounds like your T is working with you on this, and that's part of therapy, to get this stuff out. We're resistant to opening up on some things because they are in some way painful. And sometimes they've been buried for a long, long time and it's real work to get them out. It sounds like you have a good relationship with your T, so trust her and work with her. It can take a while ....